Nots!

Why can't I just grab it for just a moment before I let go? How much more time will I need to wait before I can finally be allowed to break down. Amidst these periodic episodes of falling down. I can't seem to understand my curiosity against life. The questions in my mind, strolling to find answers that turns out to be wondrous and heart-shattering all at once.

There was once a girl who knew how to break a heart. Then suddenly one day, she hoped fervently to be welcomed with love because she had its need calling out to her soul and to her life. She wished and wished for all eternity to have that person in her life and gladly was given the privilege. But like the way she wasted another person's love, events took vengeance within her own soul that swarmed her entire years. Like that pain she brought on that other person's life, she took a turn in tasting it herself. She have had a lonely and dark life. Again and again complaining how or why it happened. Not knowing her own fault. The taste of pain will bounce back once more and nobody can stop it. Someday, maybe she'll be able to taste what everyone calls sweetness and happy endings. But, not yet today. Not at this moment. She won't stand a chance. All shall wait. No expectations to dare. Amidst it all, she could not change the fact that somehow she was at fault and must be willing to take all the consequences to her actions. To learn how to take it without complains and again, maybe someday she would have her piece of cake.