Can You Understand This?

Hate naki yume motomeru shirube naki sekai de
Kasanaru omoi kokoto o tsukasasu kodou
Shizuka ni tsuzuki tamerai nai uta
Tooku sora no kanata kata mazariatta bokura no kage

hitsuzen to kimagure no naka shirusareta kioku
Surechiagatta toki no uzu kuchihatetemo kimi no koe o shinjite
Hate naki yume motomeru shirube naki mirai de
Boku ga hikari nakushitemo itsuka

Kimi ga tomoshite kureta kirameku mune no honoo
Tsubasa ni kawaru kibou no kakerameku mune no honoo

Selos?

"I am feeling it all over again.. This jealousy inside me that I keep..."

It has been a month now ever since my last post, I have been busy for our nearly(i hope)/ upcoming play in January... Well, I hope it will be a success.. But, then, back to that quoted thing, well, its been how many weeks now and i feel alright and certain... But, then. now, I am starting to doubt this feeling again! Wah! I don't know what to say, but, i feel, obviously sad... I may really be vain and sometimes self-centered, but not all the time... hehe, i think...

Well, this day is somehow annoying... During our Physical Education Class, i saw his and her performance, well, they were so close this past few days, i somehow mean, weeks... Well, they look good together really... Can you see what I am doing... Ah! I can't believe this is happening to me... Hah!

Now, he had just called me many minutes ago, well, i feel so bad... Haha! I had mistaken him for my other classmate! I am so stupid, why can't I identify him from my classmate, you may ask? Well, their voices in the phone(as heard) is somehow really similar, though! Haha! I hope it won't happen ever again! I just feel so bad with it... Well, I must take a rest now, imaginary situations are popping in and out of my mind... I am just so distracted by all those things that's happening around me...

I hope you can give me helpful comments about this...