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A Memoir To Cherish, A Bonding Unexpectedly Shared

Unpredictable but inevitable is life's course
Disjointing and disarrays brings the heart's remorse
Life's bliss shows nothing but unsure leer
People seems to have been peered.

Exactly like that splinter of recollection came through me
Emotions were sturdy for me perceive, to see
A flicker of concealed feeling leisurely reveals
Views roughly trying to unleash deeply tilling.

Effortless things may have been
But, in the end starts to get hold of that feeling
Like drafting an abstract painting
Unforeseen a state of the art it has been.

During the first day of school, everyone was anxious, excited, ignorant, naive, happy, sad, uncomfortable and many more emotions unexplainable . All wearing their uniforms the best they could. Freshmen were the main protagonist in school. That's what I have observe during the first day of school.

Astonishing it have been the first girl in school I have met was like an angel, all in white. Suddenly, it came through me, groups of unknown people started to be colleagues. Partly, groups were formed after that time. I, with her and an introduced friend who gradually became one of the special people in my life.

On one side you can clearly see, a bunch of groups with worlds of their own like ours. The group of those who are witty, another of angelic girls multiple of three, a large group almost taking 1/3 of the girls population, boys of sure arrogance in first glimpse, naughty people in a group of countless males and so as females. You wouldn't think that somehow this will leisurely change.

In just that three months, many things have been shared, enemies became friends and friends came all the way to become enemies. Superior became more superior and others were quite displaced for they were quite inferior. All wants to pass, showing all their strength to run after the school's requirements. But, some few fellows take 'no' to them. With great pride that they wouldn't dare fail. People who have hidden desires finally gathered their confidence to tell those who are concern

Arrogant people became friendly in the near end. All those troops marched and ate as one. Cheered and made a history for teachers to remember them as unique from all the others. Annoying but somehow, unexpected that there was little hope for the groups like Cognoscenti and serfs, is the distance, miracles came all the way outpouring to become as one. To learn how to love and hate each others mistake or failures and so as their success.

In the end, hugs and some few teardrops were shared. But in the heart of everyone everything shared have been of great impact. I have read that in those eyes with whom I have shared my time, I saw happiness that somehow it was treasure all the way till the end of that journey. That even when things came and stopped by for such a short period of time, it had been great til the very end.

ReAd it..

Tree, Leaf and Wind

People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off.The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want toknow what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her.There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup.Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes.Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf
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People call me Leaf.

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits.But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care
for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered ifI should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Wind
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Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person look ing at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."

"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to
her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

We made an advertise using the same sequence of story. But unfortunately, judges didn't choose it to win.. I hope you did like the stories too. This is just one of my favorite short story.

It HAS been..

Its been more than a year ever since I last posted anything in this blog. And, in that period of time. Many things have already happened. Some were critical, happy, sad, emotional and everything have been great.

Now I am already a graduate of Ateneo de Zamboanga University and I am currently studying in Centro Escolar University under the course of B.S. Pharmacy. I have met so many people and enjoyed their company. There have been many changes in my life. It starts with the "independence" I have gained for myself. I have been doing a lot of things in the past few years and I can say that I am enjoying everything. But, of course, on the dim side, I can consider sadness. Its not because of my accomplishments but of my life.

Maybe this is the stage where they often call it as "home sickness". I am not sure if it is or not, but somehow, I miss a lot of things. I'm getting jealous of some few things around me but I can't really say that the feeling is that fun. Projects are all dated with deadlines and we need to run after various teachers in various classrooms or faculties perhaps. I am already reporting in class and I have met a lot of new faces around school.

It has been happy. I can't explain it but somehow, there is this missing feeling which makes me incomplete. I don't know what it is either. I am living my life everyday expecting that the morning and the new day is better than of the one that ended. Well, maybe it didn't go that way. It has been the same.

Guess what I'm thinking? Actually, I am reminiscing the memories of my past. I don't know but it seems to me that the past is just beside me. Though they are only those memories and they are just fragments in my mind. I don't end my day by doing nothing. I cease the day (funny thing to say). But, the person who told it and made it prominent might have the point right?

Its tough now because we're having our finals next week and its a monday. I really hope I could go home. Back home where I can rest and sit on the floor, lie on my pillow (which I am missing a lot) and just forget about everything for even just a while. I want things to just pause and poof! Hehe! Funny thing to think..

We'll I will end it now because I would still need to do school stuff. Projects and such, its tiring but wish me luck, I like my project to be something wonderful or perhaps something the teacher would adore seeing, its time to end it. Thank you for spending an eyeball reading my blog. I hope you enjoy reading the stuff I had said. God Bless(I remembered Holijah's words)! But, I am serious. Its goodbye for now! 'Till the next post. Have a Happy day.