Ouch but Finally!

Well, I assure you that I finally have told those two guys that I like them and lastly, at last, I feel good... I am of no big something bag now... Though they would not treat me as a friend its okay because at least, in my own way, in that simple thing, I finally have said it... Well, it up to them now, I don't judge them, if they like someone specific, I am of no reason to disapprove, its their rights to be happy to that someone who they like the most...

Now, I just don't know what to do... I am of no more big baggage, well, it hurts though that my friends would finally get away from me, like I have a sickness, I don't know what to do and I expect nothing at all... Well! All have fun reading! And please comment...

Odd

Well, this is so very confusing, well, its just that we took about 3 long quizzes at the same day, can you just imagine the parts and how I am possibly so distracted? Well, for the first quiz, the geometry and the second one, the long quiz was just announced yesterday, and there it is, its confusing really... I am in need of panicking, I didn't get to read and assimilate what i have read... That is so odd... Well, for the last quiz, the algebra, well, I felt, quite comfortable because at least I have answered some of those.. Hehe! Weird ah! Oh, well, I guess all I did has some problem what I mean abnormalities, first of the algebra, I shifted the formulas coz I am having difficulties coz Sir is just in front of me, that was so! very disturbing, my concentration was totally ruined and now, I don't know if I got the answers correct, next is of the practical arts, I was so mixed up, including my mind, I don't know what arc is, well, that is so wicked! I just made one and I am totally sure that it is wrong! Oh no! I failed! That one is sure! algebra was quite comforting... I was having some problem but I am quite confident that I answered it correctly, but the problem is that, I have put all my answers in the graphing paper... Well, that was really odd, all my test are quite disturbing my mind...! Well, this one end in here!

Problem Free?

It's been a really long day and quite comfortable and great... Someone tried to mess up my day but, that was good... I had fun than the expected thing to do... hehe! cool right? That wasn't what I expected because I am quite freaked this past few days, but its okay... No problem at all... I went to the main ateneo and had some good time... Hehe, I met up with my other friends and walked a bit...

Now, when I was there, I was just alone, my sister playing with all her playmates and I, sitting on that boring bench and staring at them, that was indeed boring, I felt sleepy ang nothing to do.. But, still I didn't think of anything more to do... I walked with my friends and then, I also saw 2 of my classmates in school... My other friend was greeting that classmate of mine for so many times... Hehe, weird? Yeah, indeed... Well, its been totally a cool day, we didn't have a teacher on our first and last subject... But, still things were to be solved and we needed to make a bunch of requirement... Now, tomorrow, I am having too many quizzes or what i mean, tests... Well its hard but it won't ruin my day... I am studying at this moment... Well? This is cool, studying huh? But, I know eventhough how hard I try, I still can do this myself...

Well, its sad though because I am having some ignoring thing with that of one of my friends, but not all the time... We just talk of non special reasons at all... Well, I guess this is going to end here... I am being bothered by all this quizzes, its sucking up my ideas and making me panic... Well, freaky ang panicky... hehe! well, maybe you can scroll down on my other posts and xempre, comment!

Long Day!

It has been a long day since I have organized my blog... Well, decided to organized it just for a while, I don't have the right mood as of this moment, its been nothing fine during all of my days in school, no good thing happening either... I don't have nothing more to say and I am out of words... Problematic it may seem but I'm not... I don't like to talk to anyone either... Isn't that weird?

It's been talkative of me when I am in school but not here inside our house, I don't talk more often but then sometimes I can dare entertain myself.. Even me myself I have problems, but I can manage to solve it, I still have my brain, right?

See? I don't have nothing more to say... I am just explaining damn things me, myself doesn't even know... Well, this keeps me in shape still... Hehe, well, seems boring then you could stop reading and I'd stop typing by now... Weird... Well, check on my blog for updates!

Trust!

Have you ever experienced being out of place... Well, I guess you do... It's not that I am feeling or something but I felt really strange, I am problem free and I don't know what to do... Well, one of my friends seems like going away from me... Maybe, now he's no longer comfortable in my company and just wanted to get the heck out, away from me...

I feel out of place really, and I feel sad, it's like I don't belong, it seems like they don't like me.. Nah! ano ba naman itong buhay na ito... I can't think of anything now, well, no big deal... I accept this, this is all my fault... I guess that they just don't trust me... Well! Now what can I think of! If they don't like to be with me or maybe talk to me, then confront me... I just don't want myself to get in this kind of thing... Being alone... Sadly, those were my really close friends... Now, what can I think?! If they don't like me... Do they really pity me? Well, I don't like pitying myself, I enjoy problems and that what makes us all unique... I just wanted to help...Can't they allow me? Noon naman sinasabi nila lahat... Now, I guess its too personal, but I feel really, really sad, I can't even react...Do they expect me not to help, I was being pakialamera na para lang matulungan or comment of anything pero kung ayaw niya talaga sabihin un... I'd take that...

I won't no longer ask for anything kung ayaw kong mapahiya... Alam ko naman na napahiya na ako, pero siguro makapal lang pa rin ang mukha ko kaya ganito ako... Help is what I lend people... Comment is what I ask... No other, sa kanila I can be myself, but seems like everything just started to change and I think that he no longer likes me.. I feel a trash, hindi naman sa ayaw kong hindi ako pinapansin pero I am serious asking him of what his problem was pero not answering my question... I just can't no longer feel that trust around the bush... May trust pa nga ba ang taong un sa akin or its just really supposed to be between them, not including me...

Well, this is really sad, I am discourage and I don't feel like he is the old friend I was with, ngayon, ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya... Parang masyadong cold... Parang ewan ko nalang kung ano ang iisipin ko, totoo lang talaga kaya na ayaw niya sa akin o ayaw niyang problemahin ko ang mga problema niya(or maybe just concern about my state)... O I also made him feel cold and he's taking revenge(joke lang)... I wasn't telling him who I liked and as far as I am concern isa lang ang sinabihan ko, I am suppose to tell him everything kasi from all the guys I met he was really the one who stand out I admire him a lot because of his good qualities, he's loyal and he's willing to help in everything pero what if kung nalaman niya kung sino ang secret na lalakeng nagustuhan ko (noon), no comment nalang, wala din naman siyang ma-co-comment kung nakilala niya yun... But, i was at least telling him something about that guy... Well, I know time comes and when that beans would be spilled... Mapapahiya nalang ako... I can't hide something from him but now I do... Because, indeed it was something personal that even a single guy wouldn't even know from me... Now, I decided to be myself, do the old ways and expect nothing unless it is given to me freely..

Well, people who had read that, care to comment?

Kiss by Kiss

You can't believe
How did I succeed
I went where no one's gone before
I opened up your heart
And tiptoed through the door
To forevermore

What did I do
I took my time with you
The other girls they moved too fast
I knew the way to make it last
Was take it slow
I let it grow

Chorus:
Kiss by kiss, and baby
Touch by touch
That you want from me so much
Darling
Kiss by kiss is how I
Got you to fall in love with me like this

Now here's the key
I made you come to me
I didn't run, I didn't chase
I played it cool, I gave you space
Before I knew
I was holding you

Made every kiss
Just so hard to resist
I always left you wanting more
Careful not to give it all
I played it smart
I won your heart

Chorus:
Kiss by kiss, and baby
Touch by touch
That you want from me so much
Darling
Kiss by kiss is how I
Got you to fall in love with me like this

Night by night and
Baby day by day
You grew to feel that special way
Darling
Kiss by kiss is how I
Got you to fall in love with me like this

I wanted you from the start
You know it was so hard
To keep it locked inside me
Afraid to scare you so
Instead I let it show

Chorus:
Kiss by kiss, and baby
Touch by touch
That you want from me so much
Darling
Kiss by kiss is how I
Got you to fall in love with me like this

Night by night and
Baby day by day
You grew to feel that special way
Darling
Kiss by kiss is how I
Got you to fall in love with me like this
Oh Kiss by Kiss

Dunno why but I like the song... Well, I like the lyrics of the song too... Maybe its just that I'm in this weird thing today... I don't really feel so good, I am quite hot(slight fever) really... and I do feel very sleepy as in... It's like I am just so very tired... Weird, I think my soul walked a bit too far and enjoyed a lot that it affected the way I acted this day... But, I still have my very last strength of typing this one! And the other post...

Now What!

Well, problematic it may seem, but I guess this is day is mixed up with something like lucky and unlucky day! Lucky because I feel strange and not lucky because of the balls that was thrown to me by the kids in the main ateneo.. Well, that do hurts so much... That was twice!

Well, isn't this such a lucky day... Heheh! Well, its so boring... I'd rather sleep inside our class, I am so(very) exhausted of what we're doing.. Well, I decided to pass by the main campus this afternoon... I don't want to spend too much, I am not quite happy when I loose a big amount of money... And it freaks me out when I feel or see something strange happening around me, including myself... Well, this day is so very boring... I don't expect anything at all but why do my feelings for that other guy still arouse.. Well, wag nah sana mabuhay yun! Ayoko ngang magkagustoh sa kanya eh! I'd just accept that we're "Just Friends"... Because of the possibilities that I would feel this si called jealousy and start going or running and even maybe hiding from him, if I can do it the best I could, well I would prefer that, than seeing him with someone else whom he enjoys talking...

Now really, I have decided to choose this other guy... I also like him, but it seems like my feelings for that other one still exist, but I don't know what is the deal between us really... Well, he respects me as a girl, but I dont want to be like a baby... Now, I'm taking away my feelings for him, but though everytime I'd see him with another girl happy... How I hope that he was to be my partner in life... But, because of the freakin' decision I made up and that we are impossible with each other, I can't say anything more... My head wants to stop thinking anymore because I was done deciding, but reminiscing this specific guy inside of my stupid mind, well... no comment, I hope God will really guide me...

Well it ends here, hope you could understand my problematic life... And maybe help me with your comments... But, I hope it will be helpful... Thank you again for reading this one...

Silly!

Well, this day is quite silly, I have nothing to do and decided to chat with my all time chatmeyt, ang klasmeyt koh! Si Ganni, well, actually I am doing something weird when I'm really, really, oh so bored, so I decided to do this weird thing... Well, I am laughing all by myself with this... Well, this is intriguing and I am oh so very happy...

Weird, this feeling I can feel, I don't literally feel happy, but doesn't fit to what or how I am acting at this very moment... I can't say anything 'coz it is quite personal, though I can say that I am contented from all the things happening to me at this very moment... I can say that this happiness will also fade in a very fast time... Well, this is just something I can't ignore all my life, I can't say anything more and I am not even expecting anything...

Maybe, God indeed is really very good, and I am very happy of all the things that are happening to me at this very moment, this is quite weird though, I am a fool really, a jerk and a damn it may seem to me, but I am still happy... I am considering every fact and I do not want to be the one who is kontrabida o antagonist to someone else's life... Well, I also do not want anything as of now, but to sleep... My eyes are slowly getting very boring... Hehe! GoodLuck to me! I am such an injured person in everything I do! But, no one else will make me go mad.. Except if my mom will be scolding me... But, patience is a virtue...

Anong Buhay 'to!

Well, now I know what you're feeling, I will no longer expect anything from you... I know that you like her and i don't want to be the hindrance of your love to her, now, I just can't imagine myself crying, maybe the pain that I felt just can't be shown... I am too weak now, I don't have the qualities you want for a girl, I am imperfect and if the time comes you realize that she was really the one meant for you, I will accept the judgment God gave... Well, kung hindi naman, ikaw na ang maghanap ng taong mamahalin moh!

Well, I still can't find the time to tell this other guy what I felt for him, i can't dare lose friendship just because of this feeling special.. Well, ma'am Tere's story struck me... Now, I understand how it feels, to be like feeling oh so very special, eventhough that specific person doesn't really like you, he's just a friend... I feel that I am like an ignorant of love eventhough I have felt it to this certain guy, well, he's ignoring me all this time, what can I do? I just can't push myself to him, and I won't even dare, what the hell... Everything that's happening to me now is the payment of my very bad attitude! What a freak... I can't dare kill for love... And eventhough that hurts, I can still overcome this lonesome days... or may be years...

Now, have you ever felt alone all this time? Me, I can feel that loneliness, all of them are gone, no one to help and save me, I'm falling deeply to these very many hardships in life, but, I consider myself strong, everything happening is just part of my human hardship we call trial... Well, I insist myself to go on and have fun... Try not to feel so feeling and I won't go down that path again... I need to be strong from everything I am doing... But, still I won't give up... Kahit ano pa ang gawin niyo sa akin, wala akong pakialam!

Anong Meron Sila??

I didn't expect this to be like this... Didn't like this to happen... To choose between who's much greater in my heart... Well, I am quite dissapointed and displeased, really!...

I don't know the other one... He's just out there... Strolling around my brain... Well, it connects into my heart... Every step, every smile, everytime I see him... I feel so lucky ang glad... But, how can this be its so difficult... Can't stare at him and can't even dare speak to him... He's such a busy guy...

The other one's a freak, filled with mistery and I am really having difficulties... Well, I guess many people knew him... Hehe... I don't know, he is just so ewan... But, I like him... Well, really difficult ah?

Now, I need some comments of who I am to choose... Well, it will be a help if you would comment... Thank you!

Something New...

Well, for the past few days, I was talking about problems of the heart... Now, I decided to change even a bit because, I hate thinking about those things at this very moment... I wanted to think of my requirements really... I wanted to solve them all...

I know that I am not that smart, but, still I give all my best to make my assignments, though not correct but at least... It has a point.. Well, I can say I am not always lucky, and I don't have something to be proud of myself, because I am just a Loser in this world... But, I like to prove myself that as a human, I am here to give my best, not for myself but for God... Hehe, well, that's what I'm here for I guess...

I am happy as of now, doing all my best for my assignments... But, no big deal really, I just wanted to spend many hours doing nothing... Hehe, I hope I can do it even a once... Well, I guess I would end this up in here... Thank you for reading my blog... Have fun!

Mahal Mo Kaya Ako o Umaasa Lang Ako?

Kung nalaman ko lang sana noon na mahal mo ako...
Sana ay masaya na tayo ngayon,
Pero dahil sa nagkagusto ka ng iba,
Wala na akong magawa kundi ang tanggapin kung saan ka magiging masaya...
Mahirap talaga ang maging masaya,
Ang hanapin ang kaligayahan na di ko gusto!
Ang masawi ang puso ko!

Ngayon, gusto kong malaman, mahal mo ba ako?
Tanggap mo ba kung ano ako?
Kaya mo bang maghintay para sa akin kahit na magkalayo tayo?
O ang kaya mo lang gawin para sa akin ay bitawan ako
Kahit sobrang pagmamahal na ang nararamdaman ko para sayo!?
Ngayon, sabihin mo! Isagot mo ang mga tanong ko!"

Nakikiusap ako sayo, kinakailangan ko ng sagot,
Ang sagot na makakaligtas sa sakit na 'to
At ang sagot sa pinakamasakit na tanggapin
Di ko na alam ang aking iisipin...
Ang nais ko lang ipaalam sayo
Na ikaw ay andito pa rin sa puso ko...

Well, I know he will not know what I am talking about, there's just one thing I like to know, if he feels the same way I do or I am just expecting a thing that can't really be true, well, that really hurts for me, knowing nothing but still expecting something that I'd never know if it will come...

Do I Love Him?

Well, as for me, I am so confused of who I am to choose... It's really difficult for me... It's a melting heart I can say I could feel for this very moment... I feel that I am the most "ewan sa mga nagkakagusto sa ibang tao! Ano bah naman kasi, di ko alam ang nararamdaman niya o kaya nila"... Why can't I be happy with my life without them... They are not my oxygen "naman di bah!..." I can possibly breathe without any of them in my stupid life...

Well, as for me, as early as now, I need to decide now... Though, I can't feel any care from them... Such a jerk here... Always stays away... Breaks my heart into really small pieces... Well, now I decided, I'd not choose Boy1 and Boy2, well, I think I can still love them the way I felt for him before! But, that is "siguro" means, I am not sure yet of my decision... Well, this is my life, and even I'd be terribly hurt by everything, I can still give up and stand up, each and everytime...

Can any answers to my problems come near me... Signs that I am suppose to follow, where I could find happiness with the one I love... Signs that can make me understand that he is the one or he isn't just it... I possibly can give up anything just to see those two person I like happy... Well, I've given up Boy1 and Boy2... Just making up a big decision of my life... That was hard though, giving him up makes my heart unbalance, well I hope I'd find the same guy as he is, he's a gentleman to me, kind-very kind, I think he's a nice guy because I guess a bunch of girl goes running with him(the other one)... The second one is a silent type of guy, can't dare read his mind and both of them are really very weird, the weirdess I guess... I just like their attitude, and now, I am back to zero...Well, those description applies to each and everyone... I hope after this two days, I am back to where I started, being there, just as a good friend not a lover...

Well, my day didn't quite fit the day I have expected because I saw one of the boys and that was really terrible, I was happy 'coz he didn't see me and didn't go inside the place I was, weeah, its like I've seen a ghost... My wish really did come true, I wished that I'd see him one more time, and that time did come true... Well, for me that was weird...

I just hope that all of them will get their happiness with the ones they really like to be with and be contented in everything they did and satisfied also, with the path they'd chosen... As for me, it was quite happy because at least, I learned a lesson... That, in able to love someone, you really, really need to give them up for their happiness... Now, I feel void, null and nothing at all... I really, really hope that my feelings for them will not be known by anyone else... 'Coz, they wouldn't like knowing that I liked-d them...

Though hard, now I am happy and contented... My heart is starting(starting not yet close... "Asa pah rin ako!") to close... It's like I am inside a big jail with a big door... Unable to do anything now... Expecting for nothing... But, still living just for the true love I am waiting to unlock my heart and set me free...

A Hard Decision?

Well, I didn't quite like this problem of mine as of now, this week was really damn hard! All of the things are just so hard to take... My heart and brain just can't come out with a decision, that's why I feel quite creepy...

Now, I just came up with the idea that I need to decide... I just came up with the choosing of one of the guys I like... Well, indeed I hope I made the right decision, and i'd stick with it, whatever may happen to me, even if I would be hurt by anything happening around... I just feel quite ill, for myself really! But, as of now I feel quite comfortable! Moderately feeling still... hehe... Now, all I would be thinking about is my requirements which I need to pass tomorrow and try getting online while chatting with my friends, though for a while... Thank God this day wasn't so bad at all... I just felt comfortable... But, not with one of my friend... He/She is quite getting far away each and every day, I just don't know what I might be doing, I just hope he/she won't stay away from me because he's/she's always there when I need his/her help in everything... That person I know is really striving hard, and I hope it won't affect our friendship...

He/ She I know has something inside him/her, and I just don't know what it is... If there's really something I hope that he'd/she'd be sharing it to me... Well, I hope happiness for him/her, whoever he/she is!

I'll Take The Tears!

Well, I am suppose to post this thing, about 2 days ago, but out computer was ill, hehe, what a term... I was really pissed off by it 'coz I do want to post this, well then, here the story goes..

Well, on the past two days, I've been having problems and that problem, really wasn't a big deal at all to anyone, except, me, myself! What a jerk I can say... I cried, I can't really believe that my tears came rolling down my eyes. Well, that was twice, first, June 11, and the second one, June 12! As for me, I don't really wanted to cry that hard, it just hurts deep inside me, it was really a damn pain! Why do I need to take all this trials? I asked that to myself, I feel really, really restless! "Ano pa bang kulang sa akin!" I want to say those words and find out what they'd think about it... But, that day was just really bit hard, I didn't get to be happy, all those times just thinking of my crush...

Well, the story is this, I felt so bad because a friend asked, "Sino si __________ _______?" Well, with no idea, I answered, "______"... That friend of mine said that a teacher told her that she and _______ was fit... I guess you know that word... Well, I can't say anything, I didn't get the chance to speak... Tears were starting to drop out of my eyes, and then suddenly, I can't just keep it and started crying so hard feeling really painful! That was really horrible! I just wished I didn't heard anything at all...

Here's the one that goes on the date June 12... That was lunchbreak... Well, I got to passed by our cafeteria (in the lobby)... Well, there goes my friends, the ones who were with me when I cried the other day... There they were smiling... Happy that is... Well, the story goes like this... When I was with them for quite a bit, a friend of mine and me got to talk about that scenario again... And, I told her to just stop because I know I can possibly cry again... Then, there it goes, I just kind of reminisce the things I don't like to remember... That was so bad... I felt so bad and started crying all over again... I can't believe I would cry just for that guy! It realy damn hurt inside! Well, it was like an ice pick plunging to my heart... Ouch! Masakit talaga 'yon! Well, thanks to one of my friends and asked me to sit down, well he really is a gentleman, and thank God someone let me borrowed her handkerchief, I was quite lucky 'coz my friends were still there who tried to comfort me... I thank them so much!

It's Hard to Give In...

Have you ever felt just giving in? Well, really that hurts, not just within my experience but also of others... I agree to it that when love disappears, there's still a piece that remains, and that thing makes it so difficult for someone to just forget whatever you felt or whatever happened to you...

Today, as I said, I was hopin' for a good day... Well, the day is really quite pleasant, including this thing my teacher said, "Tsubasa is the most gwapo daw, according to teachers"... Well, that is I guess a fact, its really difficult though, hearing those things and be jammed in your chair, doing nothing at all, eventhough hearing that thing makes me happy for him... Hahhh! What can I do with my life... It's just so difficult, thinking the fact that he's my classmate and just can't say anything with those things, my lips is sealed, as in sealed, when the topic is all about him... How I wish that the teacher kept it personal to herself... Wah! I wanna cry...

Well, "Tsubasa" was quite happy for that, then I'll be contented with it, that's what life is, can't change that fact... We don't fit together... How can I keep this one, it was starting to fade, then suddenly, their telling all this things! Can just they keep their mouth shut! Wah... I just felt my tears running out from the eyes... It's a really a good news for me, but so bad for my heart... Hindi ko kayang tanggapin!

I wonder, may gusto na kaya siya dun sa seatmate nia? Life! Ano ba, tanggap ko na, na hindi kami bagay, don't make me like him na! Ano ba, stop na... Wah, I wanted to cry na talaga, para mawala na siya dito sa puso ko! What ways can I make to make myself forget about him! What a jerk, I am, I consider myself a jerk kasi hindi ko ma-control ang self ko, ang liit lang naman siguro ng problema kong ito noh?! Ano ba! Sana makalimutan ko na siya ng tuluyan... Help me!! I need some help from you...

What a Dull Day!

Well, this day is not quite even for me, its quite extraordinary, I can't understand each of the people around here... Well, why am I thinking of this things by now, it's not qite important though...

Well, there's nothing important that happened to me by now... I am just so stressed out doing all of my requirements... It's just so very difficult for me, it's just been some few weeks ever since our class started and I feel so bored by now... I wonder what would happen to me by tomorrow, but i am hopin' it will be quite good, I know the day tomorrow would just be equal like any other day... Sometimes fun but sometimes its just quite dull, void or simply null...

I am hopin' or I guess, I am wishing for least assignments so that I won't spend my time too long making all of it, and I hope that somehow I could wake up early by tomorrow... But, I guess it would just be necessary... Well, that's it, I need to take a rest by now...

A Wish Come True

It's been quite a long time ever sinced I've last seen my bestfriend, I was really wishin' that at least she can get online in Yahoo Messenger so that we can get to chat eventhough a little while... That wish suprisingly came true...

This morning, I didn't quite get up so early because I slept so late at night doing nothing at all... When I finally arise from my bed I felt dizzy, maybe because I get to spend most of my time in front of our computer last night... Well, I am quite surprised to see my bestfriend online this afternoon, about 12:00 in the afternoon... But that was really a good news for me, at least in a chat we got to talk again... We said our greeting with each other and talked about something personal... Hehe, that was really fun for me, I just missed her so much and she told me that she didn't got the time to be online because their internet and phone was cut down... She also said that she misses me so much, I was so happy because at least from the gap we had, those time when we got no communication with each other she still remembered me...

It was really a pleasant day for me, getting to know something about her... But, still I wish that sometime we could get to see each other again, I hope that I could still be with her and share anything in my mind with her... Now, I had my new friends that I really trust and get to get along with each other most of the time... I hope that she too had some friends in there who takes good care of her like I did and still am doing... As of now, I am still missing other friends and is also wishing that their just all right and that they would also have those trusted friends... But, of course I won't wish that they'd forget about us who still cares and misses them... Well, now I'm just stressed out with doing all of this things, hehe, hopin' for a brighter day tomorrow...

I'm Jammed

Have you ever felt being trapped nothing to say? Well, that unfortunately happened to me this morning... It was like a curse! I can't believe that thing myself...

Well, it was early this morning...Sitting with a friend and talking about nothing important at all... We were disturbed by our very own beadle... Well, following his instruction... I went out going through our corridor expecting that my friend is at my back...i suddenly think of asking him something... Then suddenly, I asked him "......" never expecting that, that wasn't really my friend, I felt awkward... Well, he was quite shocked and in the same time I was stucked-up! But, the one I talked to is the person I don't want to talk even a bit that's why I felt awkward... That was really hard for me... Eventhough that was just an accident I just can't take it off my mind! The one I asked was my ex-crush! Wahh! I felt speechless and jammed... I felt like I am someone very small...

I hated myself because of that... I was really careless! It won't happen again! I promise that to myself... Wah! What a really careless person I am... I feel so down until now! Whew... I wasn't expecting that thing... I won't either expect that ever again!